To all the moms out there, Why?
Why are you a mom? Is it because you planned it? Or was you baby or babies suprises? Why do you keeping being a mom?
I knew I always wanted to be a mom. But I think I wasn’t ready for all the responsibilities. I married young, a year after high school. My parents didn’t really approve of my man or the wedding but they were supported of me and that’s something I love about them. We lived in a nice small apartment about 30minutes from family. I went to school & work part time my husband worked seasonal jobs. We were not rich but when we could we went to parties with friends or the occasional movie near our house. I loved going out(well I still do). But with me not being 21 yet it was sometimes difficult. Our one year wedding anniversary came & Brandon(my oldest) was convinced. I know this because I found out about a month later. I was 5 weeks pregnant and I did the math. My husband was thrilled, well of course I was too but I was also scared. (I’m a worrier.) We lived in a small one bedroom apartment, I just got laid off of my job because it was seasonal & my husband’s job was slow in the winter months. We were able to get a bigger place to rent, but I was still scared. I read “What to expect when expecting” definitely a must read for all expecting moms. That still scared me but it did help prepare me for my baby.
Over 4 years have past and what starting just my husband Charles & I, have grown to 3 kids, 3 dogs, and this crazy couple of kids that got married young. I love my kids to end of the world. But I sometimes wish it could just be me. I know that sounds like a horrible thing to say, and I hate to say it, but I just wish I could have a night off. I night to go crazy, let my hair down, sleep in! I know lots of moms do this but my husband & I are still not rich & because of certain things we don’t get out much. Charles & I go out every few months but for me it’s not enough. I am home all the time with my muchkins. If I leave the house it’s with 1 or 3 kids to run errands, a kid event or to go shopping. But I only go shopping or run errands when both boys are at school in the morning, it makes shopping easier, faster, and cheaper.
I feel like I didn’t get to let my “freak flag fly” enough before I had kids. And now that I have kids I don’t get to go crazy and party. I do get the occasional bottle or box of wine(boxes are cheaper & last longer) & stay home and drink after my angels are all sleeping. This is what I did last night after a kid’s birthday party we went to. But you should know it’s not the same. So I ask you, were you ready for a family? Did you let your “freak flag fly” before you had kids? Do you feel the same way I feel? Please let me know in the comment section, I would love to hear from you.
Until next time…Love.